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~Reflections of Loneliness~
Music plays in an almost empty room.
A solitary bird sings a love song
To an unknown partner.
A book lies open on a cluttered bed.
One lamp still alit, illuminating
An otherwise silent space.
The songs she sings are only for her ears;
The tales she spins are left unsaid, unheard.
She no longer dreams that someone will appear;
She has learnt that hope is just another word.
Clothes are scattered everywhere,
Rumpled, crumpled, but clean.
She hasn't fallen that far yet.
~Drivel~
It takes so little to break my heart,
To draw tears from my eyes.
So much sadness in this world,
That sometimes I despair.
It take so little to break my spirit,
And cause me to question myself.
So much darkness in this world,
That I fear I am blind.
How is it we who are broken,
Can walk and talk and smile
And smile and smile and smile....
As if all was right, and all mended?
It takes but a little thing, a tiny soul
To break my heart, shatter it
So completely, tears like blood
Flow freely.
And all I can say, all that
Pass my parsimonious lips
Is sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry.
Sorry.
---
~Sad~
If I did not love him,
My roads would be varied;
My paths many-forked and winding.
If I did not love him,
My thoughts would fly to other climes,
My dreams would remain unhaunted.
If I did not love him -
But it is truth that I do.
I did not choose him
Nor did he (or indeed ever would)
Choose me.
The choice - perhaps - was made
An eon or more ago;
When grey-grim ladies three
Chose to weave his bright thread
Over my shadowed one.
I cannot say, "I don't love him."
It is a scar on my heart,
A burn on my tongue,
A weight at the very centre of my being.
But when he touches me,
When he touches me,
All things burn away
In his brightness
---
~Promises, Promises~
[A vaguely Doctor Who poem]
I promised I would give you
All my tomorrows, scant as they are
When compared to the wide ocean
That is you.
I promised I would give you
A fire burning always
My little spark for the sun
That is you.
I promised I would give you
Even the air in my lungs
Except I can no longer breath
Without you.
I promised I would give you
All I am, All I was, all I ever will be.
But you are already holding me
Within you.
---
~~I Cannot Give You~~
I cannot give you everything I am;
There are parts which are unworthy.
I cannot live my days for you;
Your spirit flies too free for even loving chains.
I cannot speak for you, or think for you;
We stand as equals in voice and mind.
I cannot be the light of your life,
But only hope to be your shadow...
Last night as you lay next to me,
I wished to die then;
Safe, quietly happy.
The coldness of your skin
Warmed me as I sought to warm you.
Love, you will never know this.
I can never tell you.
For both our worlds will shatter:
Yours, a little.
Mine, entirely.
---
~~What's Inside~~
Something burns within;
Inside, yearning to get out.
But all I am is darkness
And light is what I cannot have.
So what will emerge?
I cannot imagine, I cannot care.
I know my heart can bleed
But I will not let it bleed for you.
Not because you are unworthy,
But because you are worth too much.
